This is simply just a praise report. My purpose for being here is to give God praise.
& Some may or may not understand what I mean when I speak this phrase.
God has put me on this Earth for a purpose BIGGER than what has surfaced. Every trial,tribulation, downfall & hardship has surely served a purpose.
See God made me this way. This gentle, loud but soft spoken being.
All of my bad ways have had value,even my wrongful demeanors. 
NO, April is not perfect nor rich or the beautiest of them all.
But what I do have is GOD! He's all that I AM NOT! HE IS THE ALL & ALL.
& for some strange reason He loves ME & YOU; FLAWS & ALL
No matter how many times I slip, He'll never let me COMPLETELY fall.
So see that's why I have to change My Ways, My Attitude, & My Perception these days.
Because He shows me time & time again HOW MUCH HE LOVES ME.
But I still fail Him more than on occasion, it's multiple of times a day.
Rememeber NOBODY is PERFECT let me REITERATE that if I may?
So you won't keep thinking, "How Sway? How Sway?"
How in GOD's green Earth can you ignore the rumors & the lies.
Because if you know April Latrell...You know she's been dealing for quite awhile?
That's why I quickly tell them to CHECK MY RESUME!
Know Who You Are Talking About & To When You Address A QUEEN!
I am such a nice, sweet, young lady but I can be very mean.
& mean not in a sense that I have to fight physically or with my words.
See I know that God is up HIGH looking DOWN from ABOVE.
& like I've seen Him fight my battles before
I just know that there's something amazing for me in store.
Or else the enemy wouldn't hate me so BAD.
Using people whom You never would've knew,
Would turn around & stab you in the chest. They had NO remorse for you.
But GOD quickly reminds me of HIS stripes & how I AM HEALED!
& for some strange reason this morning, I prayed,
"GOD NOT MINES BUT YOUR WILL"
Let Your Will Be Done In My Life O, GOD
Help Someone By My Stripes To Be Healed
Help Them To Know & Trust Your Love Like I Had To Because It's Really A Big Deal
At This Point In My Life, Because I Honestly Can't Deal.
With Living Mediocre & Not Fulfilling My Full Potential Because I'm Something Like A Big Deal
But That's ONLY Because You Made Me This Way
It's Nothing I Say or Do
That's Why Everyday I Pray That You Help Me To Live Life The Way You Want Me Too

In Jesus' Name I Pray

AMEN

Hey Kings & Queens,

Your favorite is up on the scene I just wanted to come thru & encourage ANY & EVERYONE going thru a season of GREAT SEPARATION is what I call it. Right now, I am seriously on Cloud 7 just because I know that I'm EXACTLY where GOD would have me to be. Notice, I said WHERE GOD WOULD HAVE ME TO BE! NOT ME! NOT MY MAMA! NOT THE BOY THAT I LOVE! But I am where GOD wants me to be. He is shifting me. He is taking me higher, as well as deeper in the knowledge & the love of Him. He is revealing things to me daily. He literally woke me up at like 4:38 this morning to pray about the situations that would transpire today. God, LITERALLY loves ME that much as He does You. But let me tell you this, I had to pray & ask GOD to show me things, separate me from people & I've been praying for divine connections & disconnections for awhile now. For awhile, it didn't seem like anything was happeneing. But SUDDENLY, something happened! People whom I loved started defaming my name & my character. I have had people from different states come at me over social media. I have literally watched my circle of trust turn into a circle of enemies week after week after week. OH HOW SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD MAKE THIS STUFF UP! But I can't! (inserts sad emoji) I just can't! So if you know what I'm talking about just know that you are not the ONLY one going thru. GOD IS DEFINITELY UP TO SOMETHING. If only we would pay just a LITTLE more attention to the smaller things happening around us we would see! AM I MAD? NOPE not AT ALL. APPALLED most certainly. But at the same time, WE don't surprise me as much anymore. I totally know my own capabilities & I trust GOD enough to know that I can't put anything past anybody. What I can do tho is continue to move on with this style & GRACE that I've been bestowed with. I mean I just seriously can't entertain certain things because of THE QUEENSHIP.

I AM A QUEEN!

P.S. QUEENS -never- STEP OFF THEIR THRONE TO ADDRESS PEASANTS! N E V E R

Happy Saturdaze

Heyyy girls & boys Heyyy!!! It is your girl! *waves* So I just wanted to come thru & catch you guys up on allllll that's being going on. Of course, if my name wasn't Latrell it wouldn't be enough to tell. But anywho...

SO.

Like I spoke about recently, I just moved back home to NC & after 3 months of NOT working, I had recently picked up a job in our local mall. I was excited because it was a customer service position and I was CHOOSING my job. I, also, had a job offer from a medical office where I would've been a Specimen Collector. Being that I had previously worked for a dental office in Virginia I did have some experience working in the medical field; so in my mind..I felt like I already knew what was expected & that was for me to be in some type of way "CONFINED" & I really wasn't into that. I'M NOT AT THIS POINT IN LIFE!

If you know me, you know that I've had several jobs. I've been working since the age of 16 & even  although GOD did intend for ALL of us to work, it was something that was not required in my household. According to my brothers tho...their encounters are a little different. Maybe growing up as the ONLY girl had something to do with it, maybe my parents getting older with time had something to do with it..nevertheless I wasn't MADE to go out & get a job at 16. It was a "want to". A personal desire of mines.

I started working at the dental office one month after my 26th birthday. 2 months & 27 days after I had moved to Virginia. I graduated MMC with 3.6 GPA in 2012. Here I was my first dental assistant job. My first job in my field. Here I am starting my career. *LAUGHS OUT LOUD*

 That did NOT last long. 

& it wasn't because I didn't like my job. NOT because I didn't like my boss or my co-workers but simply because I, April Latrell, do NOT fit society's description of educated, well-trained, dental assistant. Do I think it had something to do with being black? A little bit. Do I think it was because I was kinda loud at times? Probably. Was I ever late/did I call out? Yeah! But seriously literally EVERY one in the office did. Not to say it's okay but it doesn't help the defender's defense in my argument. At first I was upset. I cried. But I didn't cry long because I realized who I am & who holds my life. 

So at that point, at some point I KNEW it does NOT matter what you may or may not do.

SOME people YES will always judge YOU.

It doesn't matter that you smile, you laugh, you rarely cry at all times.

You try your hardest to spread LOVE & not hate. You try to let your light shine. 

You try to greet people with a heart of understanding. 

Because You understand that the road may be bumpy but it's apart of the landing.

It's the shakes & the bumps that upset You, Your mind, & Your heart

You think for a second or for a lifetime that Your world is falling apart.

You don't see the beauty in the secret of not knowing the unknown. 

Not realizing that's WHY You were CHOSEN to RULE THE THRONE!

Everybody can't wear Your crown. That's why the prideful attempt to look down.

They attempt to throw shade & try to shade Your light. Attempt to make You drown.

But You can NOT blame THEM because their lost & not found.

-heart of Latrell

But I said ALL OF THAT to say all of this! I worked in the mall for 6 weeks. A month & half. My very first job, I worked at a local Andy's (now Hwy 55). I worked there for a week. GOD at an early age put an entreprenuer spirit in me. I walked out that job on Thursday not because I think I'm better than ANYBODY else. It's just that I know that I'm made for GREATER WEALTH. If I can turn down a 13.00/hr a job for a 9.00/hr I know that GOD has something better in store for me. It's all about my perception You see! See GOD knows our heart but ultimately HE KNOWS BEST! & So I know GOD didn't BLESS ME to deal with MESS! & so at this point in life like I said on social media.

"MY PEACE IS MY PRIORITY. IT IS NOT AN OPTION!" 

God has a funny way of telling me to just chill.
He always lets me know His love & favor for me is real.
Even when I don't deserve it.
His love to me He keep serving. I keep swerving.
Crashing lanes... going insane.
Having a mental break down in my brain. Because these thoughts they get reckless.
& somehow make me feel helpless, make me hopeless,
No less...than a penny with a hole in it.
But I know I'm worth more.
Because He opening all these doors.
He keeps showering me with blessings.
He keeps teaching me valuable lessons. That God I'm trying to apply daily.
I need you to arrest me.
Hold me captive.
Until I'm totally yours.
I don't want to be hers or his or theirs ANYMORE 😩

#HeartofLatrell