What We Want

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That guy that's sexing 100 chicks

The girls who's sexed 50 niggas

WE ALL WANT THE SAME THING

The girl that's chasing that high

That guy who drinks a bottle every night just to get by

WE ALL WANT THE SAME THING

That man who's so consumed by his work

That girl who's accusing him of doing dirt

WE ALL WANT THE SAME THING

We all want the same thing & what is the same thing we all want

We just want perfect love from imperfect people without a front

Without a front ; Without a fight

When things get rough or when they're right

WE ALL WANT THE SAME THING

We all want the same thing what is this same thing that we want

To experience being drunk in love without actually being drunk

To actually feel the love of some body the one designed specifically for you

Who will love you for the good & the bad things you do

Or the bad things you did we all want someone who's slow to anger & quick to forgive

WE ALL WANT THE SAME THING

We all want the same thing ; What's the one thing that we want

TO FEEL LOVED & TO LOVE BACK WITHOUT IT BEING A THOUGHT

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Heart Transplant

I'm going thru surgery. Some days are easier than others. & some days are really hard. The reason why I say I'm going thru surgery & having a heart transplant because "It Is What It Is" & that's what it feels like. OUTPATIENT SURGERY. I'm free to leave once my surgery is complete. Which gives me the option to return to whatever SICKENSS that is out of my body. I am speaking SPIRITUAL (I hope that you caught that) so everything that I say is not to be taken literal. SPIRITUALLY I'M SICK! & my issue is of the heart which means I need a heart transplant. I belive this is so real to the point that I actually feel the pain in the natural/physical.

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 My heart hurts at times & aches for love.

The authentic, genuine, forgiving, LOVE from above.

I didn't plan for this to be a riddle. I didn't mean to rhyme my words.

But regardless of how they come out, I know that they must be heard.

This heart transplant I speak about is not something that has just occurred

But a cry & whisper from God that's finally been heard.

I hear you my Father, I HEAR YOU loud & clear.

But wait hold on, I also hear the sound of FEAR.

I hear the sound of DOUBT saying, "April, You're no good!"

You're just a country girl who LOVES being in the hood

Chillen with hood niggas, doing hood girls things.

But WAIT, HOLD ON this all has to be a dream.

This is NOT your PURPOSE nor your SUCCESS!

God has plans to PROSPER you NOT bring about STRESS 

Or MESS, or UNHAPPINESS, or HEART BREAK & PAIN!

But like Betty Wright said, "No Pain ; No Gain!"

So about this heart transplant, YES! It has to take place

God has got to get me to a better space

A better spot, A better relationship with Him.

Because although it's still cloudy the light shines very dim

so I'm still gonna smile during my surgery. 

&& IT'S ALL DUE TO HIM!!!

7.3.15

I called this "Heart Transplant" because I honestly do think that is what God is doing in my life right now. I have literally like I stated before I've been feeling a CERTAIN type of pain..NOT EXTREME. But to me it's like the tugging of GOD on MY HEART!

God is changing my heart. Making me fit for His use. God knows just like in the military here on Earth, in order for me to be a great Soldier my heart has to be on point. Right now, I'm in TRAINING & PREPARATION. I'M SICK. I'M BROKEN. I NEED A HEALING. I NEED DELIVERANCE. I NEED A NEW HEART! So many of us need new hearts. We've all experienced some type of lost, trauma, and/or experience that has ultimately left our heart in an unstable state. & unless you've recieved the PROPER healing your heart will stay in the condition that it is in. But why not receive a heart transplant from the BEST physician, Dr, heart surgeon possible. Only God can take away the pain/trauma that you & your heart has experienced. It's up to us whether or not we want to be healed & made whole. The CHOICE is YOURS! & as much as God is constantly pulling & tugging at us & at our hearts it's not until WE give Him the permission to perform the surgery that He steps in. (Really like a real Dr, I LOVE IT!) God is so amazingly amazing! & I know you may be feeling like there's way too much work that needs to be done but if you ever need a friendly reminder PLEASE..take a look at me! PERFECTLY IMPERFECTLY! FLAWED BY ALL MEASURES! But still FIT for the KING'S USE as long as I let Him. I'm choosing a different life. A different way of living. I want to be made WHOLE! COMPLETE IN HIS IMAGE!

WOMAN OF GOD, RISE!

W.O.G RISE

ALTHOUGH, I HAVE A PRETTY NICE FLOW

I'M NOT TO BE COMPARED TO MS. MAYA ANGELOU

A COMPARISON ALTHOUGH,I WOULDN'T MIND TO BE

I THINK IT'LL BE BETTER IF I JUST BE ME.

NOT SOME NAMELESS OFF BRAND OR EVEN ONE WITH A POPULAR TITLE

I'M JUST A YOUNG WOMAN TRYING TO REPLACE HER IDOLS

TRYING TO REAP THE BENEFITS OF WHAT GOD HAS OFFERED ME

I WANT TO SEE THIS WOMAN OF GOD THAT'S INSIDE OF ME

RISE WOMAN OF GOD TAKE YOUR RIGHTFUL PLACE AT HOME

YOU'RE A QUEEN PRINCESS YOU DESERVE TO SIT ON A THRONE

YOU DESERVE THE FINER THINGS IN LIFE

THOUGH LIFE CAUSED YOU MUCH STRIFE

YOU STOOD STRONG THE TEST WITH ENDURANCE, MUCH LIKE A KINGS WIFE

FOR WE KNOW WHEN YOU ARE ROYALTY THERE WILL BE MANY AT YOUR FEET

NOT TO BE DESPISED BUT FOR GOD TO ALLOW YOU TO BE MEEK

WHEN YOU WERE AS HARD AS A ROCK

SEE THE CHANGES THAT TAKE PLACE WHEN YOU GET RID OF THE BLOCKS

THAT MAY STAND IN YOUR WAY

LOOK UP FOR EVERY OPPORTUNITY & DEVINE CHANCE

TO SPEAK LIFE, DECREES, & MANY COMMANDS

YOU HAVE THE POWER TO DO SO REMEMBER ROYALTY NOT TRASH

DON'T THINK OF YOUR SELF LEAST

WHEN YOU'RE IN THE TOP OF YOUR CLASS

YES, YOU ARE DIFFERENT BECAUSE YOU'RE SET APART

BUT GODS UNFAILING LOVE IS NEVER TOO FAR

ALTHOUGH I KNOW,WE WOULD LOVE TO TRUST MAN

REMEMBER THAT WE WON'T BECAUSE WE SIMPLY CAN'T

KNOWING ALL GOOD THINGS

COME DIRECTLY FROM HEAVEN ABOVE

NEVER LOSE FOCUS ON WHERE YOUR HEADED & WHO'S ON TOP

BECAUSE WOMAN OF GOD RISING IS THE ONLY CHANCE WE'VE GOT

DON'T BE AFRAID OF BECOMING SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T KNOW YOU COULD BE

WOMAN OF GOD.. I'M RISING! PLEASE COME & JOIN ME