So you guys..let me start off by saying I'm so sorry for the delay. I know it has been FOREVER (almost literally) since I've written. So let me say thanks for being patient with me while I'm on this journey. To be honest, these past couple of weeks I had taken a detour on my journey. Yesss...me. I know the one who is always encouraging others to stay on the right path. Well let me say, thank God for His son Jesus & Him laying down His life for my iniquities. Thanks also to those of you who will read this post & not judge me but who will instead encourage & pray for me.
These past couple of weeks have been extremely testing & trying. It seems like it was constantly one thing after another. One fight/battle after another. & I was definitely losing every fight one after another. I had absolutely no fight in me. Not only was a mentally drained but my spirit man was truly weak. As my Pastor said, "You are what you eat." & my spirit man had not been eating anything. I hadn't been in my word nor was I praying.
Lesson 1: 1 Peter 5:8 KJV
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
I was the perfect victim for the adversary. I was the perfect prey. Not paying attention, weak, & vulnerable. & the enemy knew that. Prior to this I was in a season of not really going thru too much testing. & if I was being tested they were really small tests. So I wasn't being very sober & vigilant. So when the enemy saw the perfect opportune time to pounce he did just that. And as I said before I had no fight left in me so I laid there & let him have his way.
Lesson 2: 2 Corinthians 12:6-10 KJV
6 For though I would desire to glory, I shall not be a fool; for I will say the truth: but now I forbear, lest any man should think of me above that which he seeth me to be, or that he heareth of me.
7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
Now this says a whole mouth full in itself. Mmm...Paul just said so much where do I begin. I'm going to keep it short & simple. For me I was given several thorns it felt like. Pornography, clubbing, drinking, & smoking are some of the thorns that have been put in my side during this season. Thorns that I thought I no longer had to deal with it. But like Paul said they were there for my reminder that I need GOD daily! This period has been a humbling experience for me. & at the end of it all I bless God for my thorns.
Lesson 3: 2 Samuel 7:14-15 NLT
14 I will be his father, and he will be my son. If he sins, I will correct and discipline him with the rod, like any father would do. 15 But my favor will not be taken from him as I took it from Saul, whom I removed from your sight.
This blessed me in so many ways when I read it last night. God said, Even tho I have sinned...He won't throw me away, turn His back on me, or give up on me but He will CORRECT ME & DISCIPLINE ME & MY FAVOR WILL NOT BE TAKEN FROM HIM!!!!!! Now if you don't owe God a praise because of that I know I do! No matter how many times I try to run away or escape or just not see/feel His love for me it's always there. For Him to know every thing I've done & everything I will done just like Solomon He will STILL use me in spite of me. So last night after I read this, I got it in my mind that my boxing gloves are back on. & I'm fighting for what's mine. I woke up this morning...which let me know that GOD is NOT thru with me yet.
Lesson 2: 2 Corinthians 12:6-10 KJV
6 For though I would desire to glory, I shall not be a fool; for I will say the truth: but now I forbear, lest any man should think of me above that which he seeth me to be, or that he heareth of me.
7 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
8 For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
Now this says a whole mouth full in itself. Mmm...Paul just said so much where do I begin. I'm going to keep it short & simple. For me I was given several thorns it felt like. Pornography, clubbing, drinking, & smoking are some of the thorns that have been put in my side during this season. Thorns that I thought I no longer had to deal with it. But like Paul said they were there for my reminder that I need GOD daily! This period has been a humbling experience for me. & at the end of it all I bless God for my thorns.
Lesson 3: 2 Samuel 7:14-15 NLT
14 I will be his father, and he will be my son. If he sins, I will correct and discipline him with the rod, like any father would do. 15 But my favor will not be taken from him as I took it from Saul, whom I removed from your sight.
* PRAISE BREAK *
This blessed me in so many ways when I read it last night. God said, Even tho I have sinned...He won't throw me away, turn His back on me, or give up on me but He will CORRECT ME & DISCIPLINE ME & MY FAVOR WILL NOT BE TAKEN FROM HIM!!!!!! Now if you don't owe God a praise because of that I know I do! No matter how many times I try to run away or escape or just not see/feel His love for me it's always there. For Him to know every thing I've done & everything I will done just like Solomon He will STILL use me in spite of me. So last night after I read this, I got it in my mind that my boxing gloves are back on. & I'm fighting for what's mine. I woke up this morning...which let me know that GOD is NOT thru with me yet.
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| Looking forward to my future...it's brighter than my past! |
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