Single

 

Yesss honey w/ two snaps! & I love it! It just occurred to me the other day while on my way to work just how CONTENT I have become with being single. It led me into a praise because God knows it has NOT always been this way. 

It doesn't seem too long ago that I was laying in bed holding a stuffed teddy bear in hopes of filling that void of having someone hold me at night. Here I was 22 years of age sleeping with a stuffed animal that I had named & everything! Quite crazy wouldn't you say! But what's even more crazier is that I took it with me when I stayed with friends & everything. So you can say I had it pretty bad. I was so used to having someone sleep next to me & holding me that I couldn't imagine being without it. For awhile the teddy bear did the trick. But somehow someday I just suddenly stopped putting it in my bed with me at night. 

It wasn't a hard transition to not sleep with my teddy bear anymore it didn't even bother me. I was so relieved! I could go to sleep peacefully without any sleep aid, which is something I struggled with after my last break up. Because we had slept together so much, when we broke up there were nights I couldn't sleep! That was like the worst thing ever for me because me & sleep have our own personal relationship so that was cutting all up in that. So when I was able to sleep at night BY MYSELF it was such a great feeling! 

Now on the real April Latrell tip even tho I was good sleeping alone & stuff it probably wasn't until the end of last year that I actually was like, "You know what I'll be single for the rest of my life before I end up in another bad relationship & waste my time." I was only 23 & had (to me) felt like the relationship history of a 30 year old! After speaking with my mentor one day & her saying, "April you are just like white carpet. Whenever something gets on you or defiles you, you can see it all over you." Along with all the other things she spoke to me that day, I had to wake up & smell the smoke! Baby girl, you are way too precious & you're time is much too valuable! 

After many & much & much & many tears, I FINALLY came to the realization that I AM A VIRTUOUS WOMAN! Far more valuable than rubies. So I should walk, talk, & become the royalty that I was created to become. So I started really pursuing my passion. Trying to find out the WHY behind my being here & me going thru so many traumatic things in my life. I've found out & I'm running with it. 

Instead of wasting my time trying to figure out where the next boy is I'm trying to figure out what my next GOAL is. I'm chasing my DREAMS while getting money at the same time. I'm living life on PURPOSE. I'm PURPOSE-DRIVEN. I'm AMBITIOUS. I'm getting ready to CHANGE the WORLD & CHANGE LIVES! This is what being SINGLE is all about! Finding yourself & what you love. & falling in love with that girl in the mirror behind all the flaws & mistakes! Falling in love with your Creater & knowing that He is your FIRST LOVE! 

I really am so in love with who I'm becoming & the person I know I have the potential to be that I wouldn't trade this time for anything. Not even a white dress, diamond ring, & a couple of kids. Now in a couple of years my mind may be changed. But honestly, the way I see it is...WHAT GOD HAS FOR ME IS FOR ME!